Sunday, February 28, 2010

If I could go back in time.

The Multiples and More QOTW is a tad different this week.
"Remember that fateful day, the one where you found out you were expecting multiples? The emotions that ran through your body, the thoughts you may or may not have felt like sharing, the concerns that started keeping you up at night for the next 7-9 months? Just imagine if you knew then, what you know now. If you could go back in time (think: Marty McFly) and have a chat with your pregnant self, what would you say?"

I would start out by telling myself that everything will be fine, and that these three little people will bring more joy and love into my life than I could have ever imagined possible. Yes 3 is crazy but just as do-able as 1 or 2, I remember Jason and I saying to each other why couldn't it be 'just' twins...LOL, we were so scared to be out numbered. I would tell myself that I WILL have more than enough love to go around. For a short time I was worried that I wouldn't love all 3 as much as someone who has one baby does, silly I know. I would tell myself I WILL be a better mother than I ever thought I could be. Being someone who never particularly loved other peoples kids and was easily annoyed with kids, I was also one of those that swore up and down that I didn't want kids, up until I hit about 25 and started hearing this loud tick toc tick toc sound. I wasn't sure what kind of mother I would be, not having a very good example myself I had my worries. I would tell myself to get my huge, tired, not feeling the greatest pregnant butt up, put on some cute maternity clothes and get out of the house, because once bedrest hit you will be stuck doing nothing and you will wish you took more advantage of being out and about. I would tell myself to accept help and allow others in. I would tell myself to enjoy and commit to memory as much as possible because believe it or not you will miss all of this. Well maybe not the horrible heartburn and reflux but just about everything else :) I would tell myself to try and remember how it all felt, my belly, the babies moving, the little feet, hands, knees or elbows sticking up out of my skin...that totally creeped us out at first but now it's missed. I would tell myself to not be too scared that I would lose them, to love them. The fear of something going wrong kept me from fully bonding and allowing myself to cherish every bit of my pregnancy. I would have told myself to do the pro belly pics and the belly cast, I would love to have those mementos now. I would also tell myself to sneak a camcorder into the delivery. I was so out of it, much of those first precious moments and hours are just a blur. Wow I would sure have a long conversation with myself LOL

Here is the video I made of my belly pics week by week. For some reason the video appears black for me but if I hit the play button it plays. Please send me a message if the video won't play for you, Blogger and their video issues...GGGRrrr.


Deanna said...

Oh my goodness, I know exactly what you mean about not bonding so much during pregnancy because of the fear something would happen. I felt the same way, and I wish I could go back and spend a little more time singing, talking, and loving them in my belly...instead of just begging them to stay put and be okay like I did every morning!

Krajcimama said...

I know what you mean about not having enough love to go around - I felt the same way!

Great job wit the post-pregnancy belly! I'm jealous!

Twincerely,Olga said...

aww! great letter!!! your children are beautiful!!!

Angela said...

I loved this post! Can I add it to my expecting triplet list? I'm too tired to think of anything tonight! And glad that you covered it so beautifully! Love IT!

TripMomma said...

Thanks guys! Of course Angela :)